All the way back in the Spirit again

Well it’s true. You can’t serve two masters. Ever since I gave Otto my testimony about our journey through faith from Houston to here I realized that I have had almost nothing to do with our lives being the way they are. Every thing has been because God directed it. So why would I keep interfering the way I have been with all this Vancouver talk etc. I realize now that God is the only true reality and I need to get my ego out the way so he can do his work. That means surrendering like I said I would totally and completely. So here we are back to trusting again. I think I made a mistake last May when I started doing the computer guys. I was frustrated and hungry and broke. But I see now that I needed to still take all my needs to God via prayer. To run away and try to handle things myself was not the way to go. Leaving Heaven is not going to get you to Heaven. Also I stopped watching the news and TV as much for that matter and when I am sitting there with no way to stimulate my ego or distract myself from my true self I start to realize what I feel moved or guided to do.