Turned 40!

Today is my birthday and I am 40 years old! Man that is old. But I sure do not feel 40 or what ever my idea of being 40 is. I just feel like me. But just a little wiser. It was cool. Roxann threw me a 40th surprise birthday bash. All my friends were there, it was so cool. It was the second birthday party I had ever had in my life. The last one was when I was eight years old. I realized I had this fear of rejection or feeling like I didn’t deserver a surprise party. But I did deserve one and I had loving friends who really cared to be there for me, my new spiritual family. It made me realize that we have a pretty good support structure here in Seattle. Maybe I should not knock it so much. God is trying to work something out here. Maybe I should let him and stop trying to sabotage it with this Vancouver stuff.