The Magic Place

Well I’ve started work on the script for "Star Kids" and I tell you it is amazing. Just working on the film teleports me into this magical place. I see that I do need to go though this process. There is so much more you learn by doing something. The other thing I am noticing is that I am bumping up against my issues. I see that I have several unconscious issues about doing film and as I take action it forces me to deal with them. Like for instance, I think I have this idea that no one would want to help me. So I think "ok I'll do it alone." But really, that is just an illusion. Film is a collaborative sport and I will have to interact with others. It’s a social thing. And I can be anti social at times. Also I was thinking it would just be my family but as I work on the story I am seeing that I can make this a much bigger and more exciting movie by just asking for help. And when I think of that it scares me. Why because I fear rejection. But I tell you there is no better cure for issues that to just face up to them, and this process is forcing me to do that.

Today I finished a rough treatment and a rough outline. Next I will polish up the outline and get the sequence of events straight. Then I will work on the script. My goal is to sell this movie as a dvd. To the kids market but primarily the spiritual and the African American video markets. Just like Robert Rodriquez was thinking. And no matter how much I think this is not going to be good. All I have to do is remember that there is plenty of garbage in the video store and I know I can make a better movie than most of it. So we will see. But I see that doing this process is really helping me.

As for Seattle . I also see that I have everything I need to do what I really want here. But I still would like to move to Vancouver. Anyway, I feel this film thing is going to take us somewhere and it will be interesting to see where it takes us.